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I've never been able to see Joseph as an old man - rather a young, vigorous man with a huge heart
We had the clergy retreat earlier this week and we did something during the closing eucharist that was so meaningful. Never done it before - and it wasn't part of our ordination - we anointed each other's hands with holy oil. Each one anointed the hands of the deacon or priest next to him or her. Unhurried. Silence until Neil, our in-house musician, played "Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me (or us)" and we sang softly.
Makes me think- We also talked of ministry being baptismal ministry - we're all living out something that began with our baptisms ... to which we are all called each according to the gifts we have received ...
In one sense, having a breakdown/breakthrough and leaving community wasn't a failure (though that teeny voice still squeaks sometimes). My time at SSM was, and is, part of the ongoing gift in my ministry - prayer, community, Haiti, love of the eucharist, wrestling with relationships and meanings ... so much ... all of it ... We're on a continuum? Not finished working this out ... still alive.
St. Joseph's Day 1971. Sister Christina Faith gave me a gift for my Profession - an old leather bound, dark green, lined notebook 4" x 6.5". Written in black ink in the frontispiece: The Gospel according to St. Joseph. Opening it, I find it is blank. We have no record of Joseph's speech - only of his actions. A dreamer... harkening back to Joseph, the dreamer, in the Hebrew Scriptures ... God speaks to Joseph in dreams ... tells him what to do ... he does as he's told ... in order to fulfill what had been spoken by the Lord through the prophet. !!
Joseph is silent. He simply does. Reminds me of St. Francis - "Go out and preach the Gospel. If necessary, speak."
Waking up again and still. No pun intended - from dreams - in dreams of a heart and a world with more compassion and mercy...
Thank you, Joseph. Thank you to my Sisters.
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In case you're interested in my sacred playing with Joseph in Matthew's Gospel, I'll leave the passages below.
Matthew 1. 18 - 25 The Birth of Jesus the Messiah
18 Now the birth of Jesus the Messiah took place in this way. When his mother Mary had been engaged to Joseph, but before they lived together, she was found to be with child from the Holy Spirit. 19 Her husband Joseph, being a righteous man and unwilling to expose her to public disgrace, planned to dismiss her quietly. 20 But just when he had resolved to do this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, ‘Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife, for the child conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit. 21 She will bear a son, and you are to name him Jesus, for he will save his people from their sins.’ 22 All this took place to fulfil what had been spoken by the Lord through the prophet:
23 ‘Look, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son,
and they shall name him Emmanuel’,
and they shall name him Emmanuel’,
which means, ‘God is with us.’ 24 When Joseph awoke from sleep, he did as the angel of the Lord commanded him; he took her as his wife, 25 but had no marital relations with her until she had borne a son; and he named him Jesus.
Matthew 2:13-15 The Escape to Egypt13 Now after they had left, an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, ‘Get up, take the child and his mother, and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you; for Herod is about to search for the child, to destroy him.’ 14 Then Joseph got up, took the child and his mother by night, and went to Egypt, 15 and remained there until the death of Herod. This was to fulfil what had been spoken by the Lord through the prophet, ‘Out of Egypt I have called my son.’
Matthew 2:19-23 The Return from Egypt
19 When Herod died, an angel of the Lord suddenly appeared in a dream to Joseph in Egypt and said, 20 ‘Get up, take the child and his mother, and go to the land of Israel, for those who were seeking the child’s life are dead.’ 21 Then Joseph got up, took the child and his mother, and went to the land of Israel. 22 But when he heard that Archelaus was ruling over Judea in place of his father Herod, he was afraid to go there. And after being warned in a dream, he went away to the district of Galilee. 23 There he made his home in a town called Nazareth, so that what had been spoken through the prophets might be fulfilled, ‘He will be called a Nazorean.’